Well now what’s up!?
Sooo, I’m waiting for my obgyn to call & if not I call my family doctor again & then the gender ultrasound so either way all good there
Getting less & less sick now so I’m so happy for that. Seems every few days I feel a little rough but all good
I’m going onto 18 weeks, no movements just yet, & bump is slowly getting bigger.
Now onto pain . . . About 2 weeks ago now I got this absolutely horrible pain like the muscle spasms you get in your feet or legs & hands (atleast I do alot anyway) it was down both arms, into my shoulders, neck & horrible headache.
Now thing is I’ve had the arm pain before but only lasted a few hours, mostly went away when I had a 3am hot hot hot shower
The headaches aren’t uncommon either cause my scoliosis & lower back pain causes it.
Earlier that day I had slight arm pain like I had worked out so I assume from driving in the snow storm we had, my head started to hurt more & went to bed early
In the middle of the night I was in so much pain in my arms neck & head, I tried the shower nothing!!!
I eventually was just so exhausted I passed out eventually. In the morning I was still in pain & had to wait for my mother to come home & help me. Until then I was in tears I was trying to stretch out, nothing helped.
My mother finally came home gave me a long massage & let me borrow the massager she has. So throughout the day I would turn it on every so often
You have no idea how thankful I was that I was finally feeling my normal lower back pain again.
Soooo after all that I felt really bruised for a few days & my head was till bad. We kinda assumed hypertension headaches also so I booked an appointment with my family doctor.
Now. . . . Earlier that week I had gotten a call from my ODSP lawyer who’s helping me with my case saying well, the ODSP peopls aren’t going to look at ANY of the information I’ve sent in meaning ALL the DETAILED paperwork of each & every procedure, operations ect. This absolutely ruined me I was in tears I felt sick I didn’t want to do anything but sleep or just get away. The one thing I was holding onto was that my layer said he will contact my specialist the one who did my replacement & ask if he will give a statement.
As soon as I got off the phone I contacted Mr specialists office & got an appointment within a week. I had also done the MRI I was waiting on forever.
I go to my appointment that is an hour and 20 min drive sooo didn’t plan to clean or anything the day before orrrr few days after. As soon as I see my specialist he instantly says “I got a call & I’m going to give a statement, I use your case all the time & actually recently when I had a conference with other doctors” once again I burst into tears, I was so freaking releved. He also booked me in for nerve testing (my MRI just showed that my disks are still slowly deteriorating that we knew but cause of my loss of feeling in my leg every morning & then the arm issues I told him) he said as soon as I go to the appointment call his office. He’s also wanting to keep an eye on me because I’m pregnant.
What now
Well I’m just waiting but I feel so much better things are finally being sorted. I know my specialist would back me up just glad to actually have it confirmed. It’s just some relief
I’m just so tired of having to explain myself to have to justify that I’m disabled that I was born disabled. Why do I have to fight so hard when it’s been my entire life
I don’t want to be drugged up on meds 24/7 & unable to do anything with my life & that’s what odsp wants that’s what tells them I’m disabled . . .
🤣 I’m sorry I know I put alot into one entry but I’ve just been so blehs till last week & I needed my time to clear up my head. This all only happened the past couple weeks so lots of emotions in a small time
But for now I’m waiting on my nerve test & my obgyn. I’ll be going to a hospital outside my city that has a high risk obgyn because like I’ve said I’m high risk.
Other than that, basic money issues, covid bs, this & that trying to get by. I however got all of 40$ extra a month for diet during pregnancy.
Our half of the bills are 1450$ (my husband we aren’t actually married we don’t have paper work, we also don’t fully live together with his work & such but he still helps pay rent here & car insurance)
I get 760$ a month I think now. The 1450$ doesn’t include a card I pay for or insurance so those are a few extra hundred. Doesn’t include gas for the vehicles but includes groceries & everything related to the house.
With no bdays & such coming up I’ll be giving all 700$ over for bills & I’m waiting on the seal for my candles so I can start making those again
I have purchased new scents & colors but I’ll need more wax & I found someone for crystals as well as larger jars, however I need to sell what I can make in hopes I can purchase more materials.
Ive also kinda been waiting for my sister & brother to move out so I don’t have to split the money with my sister any more. I understand that sounds petty but I made sure not to take half for the new materials I purchased & she hasn’t helped since the first batch. I need the money nothing I can do about it sadly.
Hmmm well that’s it I think kinda . . . Without getting to into everything
Hope you’re all well & safe 💜
Dysplasia & Motherhood 